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| Monday, September 21st, 2009 | | 10:03 pm |
I got the new job. I now work in Parramatta in a mon to fir call center which is open 7am to 6pm it is 42k and with AMP 1st day of training was a wash, the next 3 weeks will be full on then the fun truly starts. there will be more. Current Mood:  accomplishedCurrent Music: Pink Floyd | | Wednesday, September 16th, 2009 | | 8:22 pm |
all my life.
well wow i am back and i will be posting at least once a week. OK so my life to date........ void, your ticket is no good you have to get off the train, that sums it up. now my life in the last few weeks, hum how to explain, no job looking for one, have a job that may hire me if i can get 1 more ref for them, life at home is strange as i am single and living with my X .... now it could be worse than it is that if for sure just strange. now i am back reading and painting and gaming, soon i will get back in to my creative writing and do more practice with my base so i don't sound so crap.... OK i have made new friends and i hope to get that all working with out fucking it up like i all ways do. this is all for now. Current Mood:  blah | | Monday, October 27th, 2008 | | 6:01 am |
Looking back at 1998
1) How old were you? Then: 13 Now: 23 2) What was your online presence? Then: Ghost or St-Ghost Now: Isandrum 3) Where did you work? Then: I was a student and was only 13 so i did a paper rout Now: Optus mobile tec support 4) Where did you live? Then: Wyong Now: Parramatta 5) Who did you live with? Then: My Dad and my brother and sister Now: Cadence 6) How was your health? Then: nice and good Now: still good 7) Pets? Then: cant remember but i think not Now: Casper and out lovely fuzz balls 8) Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend/partner/spouse/S.O. ? Then: i was 13 i had a girl who i likes and spent a bit of time with Now: the all ways right Cadence 9) Who were your friends? Then: Joel Tim and Emma, wow i still remember there names Now: if you want to know look up my face book, there are some 10) Any kids? Any plans for kids? Then: i was a kid Now: yeah very close 11) What was your worst struggle? Then: homework Now: house work 12) What was your biggest joy? Then: computers and friends Now: Cadence and computers 13) What did you consider your greatest accomplishment? Then: getting to high school Now: working and holding a house 14) What advice would you give your younger self? keep in contact with friends you fool 15) What would your younger self say to you? yeah you may be right 16) Looking back, is your life in 2008 what you thought it would be in 1998? no way i though i would live up on the central coast, go to the same high school my full school term, leave home about 20 or still live at home and work... I am much happer with my life, it has given me a lot of exp and a wonder of a women who will put up with me. | | Friday, October 17th, 2008 | | 12:12 am |
was bored
Your result for The Ultra Ultimate Personality Test... The Scientist INTJ
Independent, innovative, logical and driven by the inner world of ideas and possibilities, the INTJ often appears to others as a quietly self-confident (and sometimes stubborn) critic of the status quo, convinced that reality can be altered, the future reshaped. Wherever there is a need for change in systems, programs, concepts or theories, INTJs will be working behind the scenes to reorganize and revise. This type's focused attention to the personal mission may be inspiring or frankly obsessive, depending on the observer's viewpoint or the success of the enterprise. Introspective and somewhat shy, INTJs place their trust in logical analysis and intuition to guide their thoughts and decisions. More feeling types may find them chilly, and more practical types accuse them of being unrealistic, but INTJs take their cues mostly from those they recognize as intelligent. Often attracted to theoretical, analytical and methodological areas of inquiry, INTJs succeed in a wide variety of fields, from ones heavily dependent on mathematics and science to more philosophical, literary or applied disciplines.
Relationships
INTJs believe in constant growth in relationships, and strive for independence for themselves and their mates. They are constantly embarking on "fix-up" projects to improve the overall quality of their lives and relationships. They take their commitments seriously, but are open to redefining their vows, if they see something which may prove to be an improvement over the existing understanding. INTJs are not likely to be "touchy-feely" and overly affirming with their mates or children, and may at times be somewhat insensitive to their emotional needs. However, INTJs are in general extremely capable and intelligent individuals who strive to always be their best, and be moving in a positive direction. If they apply these basic goals to their personal relationships, they likely to enjoy happy and healthy interaction with their families and friends.
Strengths
Not threatened by conflict or criticism
Usually self-confident
Take their relationships and commitments seriously
Generally extremely intelligent and capable
Able to leave a relationship which should be ended, although they may dwell on it in their minds for awhile afterwards
Interested in "optimizing" their relationships
Good listeners
Take The Ultra Ultimate Personality Test at HelloQuizzy | | Sunday, September 7th, 2008 | | 6:19 pm |
thoughts at work
Ok here I am at work and I have been thinking about what I want to do for the golden demon awards. I have finally come up with the idea that I will do a Woflord in Terminator armour open face now all this will be a test in my modelling skills and my painting skills So to do this I will need 1 box of space marine terminators 1 box of blood claws Now the model will have a chain sword a rather long one this is in face a frost blade, he will have a storm bolter and maybe a bionic leg or hand... I will mosslike have to make a bit of him out of greenstuff I am really looking forwards to this model as he will be the wolf lord for my new spacewolfs armies. Any thoughts or hints give me a line as I am really trying to get this figured in my head. Current Music: daft punk tv rules the nation | | 3:04 pm |
work work work
Work work work That is all I ever do nowadays, I need to really get back into the things. I have let my Warhammer painting and gaming sit way to long I am not doing anything spotting and now I am not even really into world of Warcraft... all I think about it work and Melisa. I really want to get back into Warhammer for my self this time... I am really wanting to paint my Spacewolfs enter painting contests and win them like I use to. I also want my weekends back again... Oh well you only ever get out what you put in... | | Thursday, August 21st, 2008 | | 12:22 pm |
give it a try and reply
1. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (Mother and Father's middle name) Raymond Elane 2. NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad) John Ray 3. STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name) Phi sa 4. DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal!) Crimson halk 5. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born) Christopher Moree 6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning) The blue V 7. FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 3 letters of your last name) saips 8. GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie) rockie rode crunch 9. ROCK STAR NAME: (current pets name, current street name). gismo damian 10. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy) zero shurbet 11. PORN NAME: (1st pets name, street you grew up on) Inka Harvy this is really fun. | | Saturday, July 5th, 2008 | | 11:12 pm |
life is looking up
Please copy mine below, erase my answers putting yours in their place then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration! One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out. :) First Name: Sam Age: 23 Location: Greystanes Occupation: Tech support for Optus Partner: Melisa Kids: none at the moment, but want Brothers/Sisters: Alex my brother and Elizabeth my sister, do not live with either, Alex is a 2nd year chef in Campbelltown and last i heard, Elizabeth is studying. Pets: our cute ratlings List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life: #1 - getting married to Melisa #2 - getting a promotion at work #3 - finally a new computer #4 - my new bass guitar #5 - saving for my Ducatie School: finished in 2004. School was school, was busy chasing ass. found a chick while at school had a fling, broke up... i was with this chick caled Sara... had a good friend called Aleshya who i really wanted to um yeah never mind... ;). Parents: Dad... parents are a moot point i raised myself since i was 11. Who are some of your closest friends? Melisa and all my mates from Ctown. but my closest frends are my paint brushes... never let me down WOOT... looking for gold demon 2009, baby!! | | Tuesday, May 13th, 2008 | | 10:49 pm |
Walk tall, people notice!.
Thoughts Now was today just like any other day? No yesterday was fun an accomplished day; work was good travel was interesting. I have been asking this question to myself a fair bit lately “have I finally found happiness?” I rage against it, I fight it, I fail against it, but with all this force would it demonstrate my fear of happiness? I think not I think this shows that I fight for more than what I have with a desperate urge to do better than before a drive you could call it. Now do not get my words wrong, I am so very much in love with Melisa and this drive is not away from her but with her. That is a infallible truth in my life a life we have build together and for one another. What I could be saying is that we strive to create a balance between home, community and work. I feel that every day I do not accomplish this is a day where I personally fell short of my personal goals and it is so confronting that Melisa is of the same mind. Ok well people I am now off to watch news about the new government budget and get ready for work, as one day draws to a close a new days a waits! Current Mood:  anxiousCurrent Music: Disturbed | | 9:51 pm |
dancing is fun.. you should try.
You Can Only Type One Word Not as easy as you might think. Remember: one word answers. 1. Where is your mobile phone? Working 2. Your significant other? Melisa 3. Your hair? Long 4. Your mother? Away 5. Your father? Fuzzy 6. Your favourite thing? Chin-scratches 7. Your dream last night? Grey 8. Your favourite drink? H2O 9. Your dream/goal? Infallibility 10. The room you're in? Study 11. Your ex? Sara 12. Your fear? Self 13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Better 14. Where were you last night? Bed 15. What you're not? Alone 16. Muffins? Calories 17. One of your wish list items? Books 18. Where you grew up? Australia 19. The last thing you did? 20. What are you wearing? Cloths 21. Your TV? Nice 22. Your pets? Cute 23. Your computer? Nice 24. Your life? Progressing 25. Your mood? Uplifting 26. Missing someone? Sometimes 27. Your car? Invisible 28. Something you're not wearing? Shoes 29. Favourite Store? GamesWorkshop 30. Your summer? Educational 31. like someone? Always 32. Your favourite colour? Red 33. When is the last time you laughed? 21:20 34. Last time you cried? Recent Current Mood: accomplishedCurrent Music: Only NIN | | Wednesday, September 26th, 2007 | | 11:59 am |
| | Monday, August 13th, 2007 | | 6:14 pm |
work is cool workers suck
Ok I work for a Telco in Australia. Now with this kind of work you expect that customer will be annoying and angry and all that jazz, I can deal with this more over I really do not think much of it, I feel for the customer while they are on the line when the conversation is over I am back to not giving a dam in til the next customer drops in. This is just a normal day for me what really shits me, is when another (call centre rep) who thinks he can walk over to my self and yell at the top of his lungs DO YOUR JOB PROPLEY! …. I had a customer on the line who arced up at this and then making my job all the much harder. Now I was shocked at the actions of this person, what still shocks me is that no one even seamed to notice. For the reminder of the night my nerves were shot to hell thinking that I will be making mistakes all the dam time. How the is this a constructive environment, I am tomorrow having more words with my Tl I never want that to happen again and the fact that it did has made going to work rather uneasy for me. | | Monday, June 4th, 2007 | | 7:23 pm |
Teh Newness
Thanks to the awesome ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) decadentdecayed, I have a new userpic and new little frogs dancing across my page... of course they should be chickens, because we all know only chickens can dance (dance little chickens dance the dance of lameness!!) but they are frogs who think they are chickens so it is all good. XD Current Mood:  watch me dance! | | Friday, May 25th, 2007 | | 2:32 pm |
My god I want it to be 11 days in the future because them the 3rd instalment of fallout will be here and I will be able to stay up late all more like all weekend playing it learning it’s secrets and plotting what to next. The concept art is so sweet it looks like it will run on the same engine as Morowind and all it’s expansions, so it may be 1st person format but with the options as world of war craft and never winter knights where you can zoom out and look down on your character and I hope the gun fights are as realistic as in battle field 2. I think it will be primary a first person shooter with an actually plot line and actually story of a world after the bomb went off. I do have it follows the story of some one ells and not a vault dweller, maybe a X military soldier or something but it had to in some way link to fall out 2 and 1 like the others but as how this will be achieved is far beyond my understanding, yet! But yeah I am just sitting here wishing it was 11 days in the future so I would not have to wait any longer. I want a game to play which is as complex as can get with many twists and turns with a story line and game play where you can still take a sledge hammer and do a groin shot to a child! “May there never remove that from the game, because after a long day of talking to people on the phone you really do want to” So yeah there is my though as of right now! | | Wednesday, May 23rd, 2007 | | 9:56 pm |
You are The EmperorStability, power, protection, realization; a great person. The Emperor is the great authority figure of the Tarot, so it represents
fathers, father-figures and employers. There is a lot of aggression and violence
too. The Emperor naturally follows the Empress. Like an infant, he is filled with enthuiasm, energy, aggression. He is direct, guileless and all too often irresistible. Unfortunately, like a baby he can also be a tyrant. Impatient, demanding, controlling. In the best of circumstances, he signifies the leader that everyone wants to follow, sitting on a throne that indicates the solid foundation of an Empire he created, loves and rules with intelligence and enthusiasm. But that throne can also be a trap, a responsibility that has the Emperor feeling restless, bored and discontent. What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out. | | Monday, April 30th, 2007 | | 3:22 pm |
What to do, I understand that Melisa and my self right now can not be in a “relationship”, but the though of others replacing me hurts and I am trying to not let it show so Melisa can do what she needs to do and so she dose not have to worried about me, but it is hard and sneaky to control such emotions. I keep finding my self calling her number and wanting to talk to her about random things so she cannot really talk to others, but I control my self because that is just wrong and I am not a controlling person I am a leave headed person. I deal in facts not all this. I only chase down people who are dishonest and will not come clean even though they know it is hurting others, I become totally dogged and will never let them have a moment of peace well not for a long time. With knowing that then why am I chasing down Melisa and benign totally dogged in what is actually going on but I am just so confused by my own actions. Oh I do not know what to do I am just tempted to do what I all ways do and leave it and just walk away and not be a friend or anything just never talk to her but that is just as childish as moaning after a ex. So I am in a bit of a bind do I walk away knowing that it could of worked it we had tried a bit harder, or do I let her have her space and do what she needs and then take her back? Honestly both options suck and I wish I could hide from having to make a choice. | | 11:19 am |
- Age: 22 - Gender: Male - Star Sign: Aries - Longest relationship: Unofficially, 3 years 2 maths... officially, 1 yr 7 maths - Shortest relationship: 1 weekend - it was a drunken weekend thing - How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you? Most (maybe all?) of them. - Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with? The last few times. - Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? Yes, whenever I love some ones it is so much it hurts. - Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Yes, but I never mean to. - Are you happier single or in a relationship? I am happier in a relationship where I can be myself & have a bit of freedom but still have someone to come home to and snuggle up to when I am cold. - Have you ever been cheated on? Yes and it hurts. - Have you ever cheated on someone? Yes and it was good. - Have you ever had your heart broken? Yes - Have you ever broken someone's heart? I would have to say yes. - Talk to any of your ex's? Not really... there are a few who I do not like any more mainly because they are not the person who I use to like. - If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your ex's, who would it be? I am a happy ex right now, but saying that I am not so happy that I do not want her back. - Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? Yes... I am loyal and determine and dogged to a T... sometimes to my own detriment. - Have you dated people who were not good to you? Oh yeah - Have you been in an abusive relationship? NO and I will never be in one. - Have you dated someone older then you? Yes - Dated someone younger then you? Only once. - Do you regret anything that you have or haven't done with a boyfriend or girlfriend? I regret not being able to let go, even when I could see the relationship was dying or already dead. - Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? With me you get 3 chances, you may never know how close you have come to benign out in my books because I will never tell you that you have strikes out, but yeah 3 chances. - Believe in love at first sight? I think you cannot truly say I love you in till you have lived with “the person you love”. - Ever dated two people at once? No I can barley date one person at one time. - Ever been given an Engagement ring? I am a guy I do not get an engagement ring but I have given one. - Do you have something to say to any of your ex's… nothing really comes to mind that they don’t all ready know. - Ever stole someone’s boyfriend or girlfriend? Yes and it was the most complicated love triangle I have ever been in and will never do it again! - Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? Yeah I have. - Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? Worse, it is like a thousand little needles stabbing at your heart, you can not breath, you can not think you just curl up and shake at the thought of “how could some one be so mean’ | | Saturday, April 28th, 2007 | | 1:42 am |
So here i am, it is 1:39 am and once again in the long line of Sam stuff ups. one again Melisa is angry at me for doing what i told her i was going to be doing, tonight i was suppose to just play wow with my father at a web cafe. Now my father is sitting right next to me and he and my self are not really doing anything together, this is because my friends Allan and Rodney wanted to come along and play shot then up games so for most of the night i have been, now is my father angry? no. That i am not spending time that i said i would with him, now why would Melisa who has said many times that is free and single have a major issue with me having fun with my friends and not really telling her what i am doing with my evening. I ask this question i really want an answer from any one who reads my posts, i am at a loss as to what to do? i saw her sitting over there all alone and i decided that i would go over there and spend some time with her all i get is attitude, over how she is angry with me about how i did not spend any time with her. Dose this sound like a caring relationship to you? this dose not to me. I am trying to be more and more what she wants, every day i feel that a bit more of my self slips away I want to be with her but not at the cost of my self, i am still the guy she fell in love with and it has never changed it is her that has changed. I am not into playing games and i will not play this game. Now i am not doing this to have an attack at Melisa event though this will be seen as such, i am just trying to make sense of it all. | | Saturday, March 24th, 2007 | | 5:37 pm |
I have a plane
And I am back baby, I am now a working man, yeah I have a call center job at Virgin mobile and I start this Monday yeah from what I have seen of the company it is a good place to work but only time will tell Soon to be doing night school well night tafe or long distance courses, yeah-childcare certificate III, I think which will lead on to teaching and maybe a career in that field. I do so love to teach people I just have to get over my natural anger at disrespect, I mean I can teach others I have taught many people how to paint figures and these kids that play war hammer range from 12 to well my age and older, so dealing with kids from year 7 level should not be a problem. So yeah I have at least a goal in my future and with the help of my soon to be wife, Melisa and all her natural skill with the English language, so I get her help all the time with my spelling and grammar so I can improve with it so it is not so much of a problem. I am happy to say that Melisa and my self are getting closer to having our own place a place of our own where I do not have to worry about pets pissing on my things and if I leave this here will it be moved and do I have to ask to do this, NO my own place where I can walk around half naked and just chill by my self if need be. Current Mood:  amused | | Sunday, December 3rd, 2006 | | 4:58 pm |
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