emulate_dream

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 12:14:43 GMT

I got the new job.

I now work in Parramatta in a mon to fir call center which is open 7am to 6pm

it is 42k and with AMP

1st day of training was a wash, the next 3 weeks will be full on then the fun truly starts.

there will be more.

all my life.

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 10:37:55 GMT

well wow i am back and i will be posting at least once a week.

OK so my life to date........ void, your ticket is no good you have to get off the train, that sums it up.

now my life in the last few weeks, hum how to explain, no job looking for one, have a job that may hire me if i can get 1 more ref for them, life at home is strange as i am single and living with my X .... now it could be worse than it is that if for sure just strange.

now i am back reading and painting and gaming, soon i will get back in to my creative writing and do more practice with my base so i don't sound so crap....

OK i have made new friends and i hope to get that all working with out fucking it up like i all ways do.

this is all for now.

Looking back at 1998

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 19:14:03 GMT

1) How old were you?
Then: 13
Now: 23

2) What was your online presence?
Then: Ghost or St-Ghost
Now: Isandrum

3) Where did you work?
Then: I was a student and was only 13 so i did a paper rout
Now: Optus mobile tec support

4) Where did you live?
Then: Wyong
Now: Parramatta

5) Who did you live with?
Then: My Dad and my brother and sister
Now: Cadence

6) How was your health?
Then: nice and good
Now: still good

7) Pets?
Then: cant remember but i think not
Now: Casper and out lovely fuzz balls

8) Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend/partner/spouse/S.O.?
Then: i was 13 i had a girl who i likes and spent a bit of time with
Now: the all ways right Cadence

9) Who were your friends?
Then: Joel Tim and Emma, wow i still remember there names
Now: if you want to know look up my face book, there are some

10) Any kids? Any plans for kids?
Then: i was a kid
Now: yeah very close

11) What was your worst struggle?
Then: homework
Now: house work

12) What was your biggest joy?
Then: computers and friends
Now: Cadence and computers

13) What did you consider your greatest accomplishment?
Then: getting to high school
Now: working and holding a house

14) What advice would you give your younger self?
keep in contact with friends you fool

15) What would your younger self say to you?
yeah you may be right

16) Looking back, is your life in 2008 what you thought it would be in 1998?
no way i though i would live up on the central coast, go to the same high school my full school term, leave home about 20 or still live at home and work... I am much happer with my life, it has given me a lot of exp and a wonder of a women who will put up with me.

was bored

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 13:12:50 GMT

Your result for The Ultra Ultimate Personality Test...

The Scientist

INTJ

Independent, innovative, logical and driven by the inner world of ideas and possibilities, the INTJ often appears to others as a quietly self-confident (and sometimes stubborn) critic of the status quo, convinced that reality can be altered, the future reshaped. Wherever there is a need for change in systems, programs, concepts or theories, INTJs will be working behind the scenes to reorganize and revise. This type's focused attention to the personal mission may be inspiring or frankly obsessive, depending on the observer's viewpoint or the success of the enterprise. Introspective and somewhat shy, INTJs place their trust in logical analysis and intuition to guide their thoughts and decisions. More feeling types may find them chilly, and more practical types accuse them of being unrealistic, but INTJs take their cues mostly from those they recognize as intelligent. Often attracted to theoretical, analytical and methodological areas of inquiry, INTJs succeed in a wide variety of fields, from ones heavily dependent on mathematics and science to more philosophical, literary or applied disciplines.

Relationships

INTJs believe in constant growth in relationships, and strive for independence for themselves and their mates. They are constantly embarking on "fix-up" projects to improve the overall quality of their lives and relationships. They take their commitments seriously, but are open to redefining their vows, if they see something which may prove to be an improvement over the existing understanding. INTJs are not likely to be "touchy-feely" and overly affirming with their mates or children, and may at times be somewhat insensitive to their emotional needs. However, INTJs are in general extremely capable and intelligent individuals who strive to always be their best, and be moving in a positive direction. If they apply these basic goals to their personal relationships, they likely to enjoy happy and healthy interaction with their families and friends.

Strengths

Not threatened by conflict or criticism

Usually self-confident

Take their relationships and commitments seriously

Generally extremely intelligent and capable

Able to leave a relationship which should be ended, although they may dwell on it in their minds for awhile afterwards

Interested in "optimizing" their relationships

Good listeners

Take The Ultra Ultimate Personality Test at HelloQuizzy

thoughts at work

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 08:27:17 GMT

Ok here I am at work and I have been thinking about what I want to do for the golden demon awards.

I have finally come up with the idea that I will do a Woflord in Terminator armour open face now all this will be a test in my modelling skills and my painting skills

So to do this I will need

1 box of space marine terminators
1 box of blood claws

Now the model will have a chain sword a rather long one this is in face a frost blade, he will have a storm bolter and maybe a bionic leg or hand...

I will mosslike have to make a bit of him out of greenstuff

I am really looking forwards to this model as he will be the wolf lord for my new spacewolfs armies.

Any thoughts or hints give me a line as I am really trying to get this figured in my head.

work work work

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 06:04:26 GMT

Work work work

That is all I ever do nowadays, I need to really get back into the things. I have let my Warhammer painting and gaming sit way to long I am not doing anything spotting and now I am not even really into world of Warcraft... all I think about it work and Melisa.

I really want to get back into Warhammer for my self this time... I am really wanting to paint my Spacewolfs enter painting contests and win them like I use to.

I also want my weekends back again...

Oh well you only ever get out what you put in...

give it a try and reply

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 03:22:41 GMT

1. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (Mother and Father's middle name) Raymond Elane

2. NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad) John Ray

3. STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name) Phi sa

4. DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal!) Crimson halk

5. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born) Christopher Moree

6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning) The blue V
7. FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 3 letters of your last name) saips

8. GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie) rockie rode crunch

9. ROCK STAR NAME: (current pets name, current street name). gismo damian

10. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy) zero shurbet

11. PORN NAME: (1st pets name, street you grew up on) Inka Harvy

this is really fun.

life is looking up

Sat, 05 Jul 2008 13:31:51 GMT

Please copy mine below, erase my answers putting yours in their place then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration! One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out. :)

First Name: Sam

Age: 23

Location: Greystanes

Occupation: Tech support for Optus

Partner: Melisa

Kids: none at the moment, but want

Brothers/Sisters: Alex my brother and Elizabeth my sister, do not live with either, Alex is a 2nd year chef in Campbelltown and last i heard, Elizabeth is studying.

Pets: our cute ratlings

List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
#1 - getting married to Melisa
#2 - getting a promotion at work
#3 - finally a new computer
#4 - my new bass guitar
#5 - saving for my Ducatie

School: finished in 2004. School was school, was busy chasing ass. found a chick while at school had a fling, broke up... i was with this chick caled Sara... had a good friend called Aleshya who i really wanted to um yeah never mind... ;).

Parents: Dad... parents are a moot point i raised myself since i was 11.

Who are some of your closest friends? Melisa and all my mates from Ctown.
but my closest frends are my paint brushes... never let me down WOOT... looking for gold demon 2009, baby!!

Walk tall, people notice!.

Tue, 13 May 2008 12:59:38 GMT

Thoughts

Now was today just like any other day? No yesterday was fun an accomplished day; work was good travel was interesting.
I have been asking this question to myself a fair bit lately “have I finally found happiness?” I rage against it, I fight it, I fail against it, but with all this force would it demonstrate my fear of happiness? I think not I think this shows that I fight for more than what I have with a desperate urge to do better than before a drive you could call it.

Now do not get my words wrong, I am so very much in love with Melisa and this drive is not away from her but with her. That is a infallible truth in my life a life we have build together and for one another. What I could be saying is that we strive to create a balance between home, community and work. I feel that every day I do not accomplish this is a day where I personally fell short of my personal goals and it is so confronting that Melisa is of the same mind.

Ok well people I am now off to watch news about the new government budget and get ready for work, as one day draws to a close a new days a waits!

dancing is fun.. you should try.

Tue, 13 May 2008 12:14:53 GMT

You
Can
Only
Type
One
Word

Not as easy as you might think. Remember: one word answers.

1. Where is your mobile phone? Working
2. Your significant other? Melisa
3. Your hair? Long
4. Your mother? Away
5. Your father? Fuzzy
6. Your favourite thing? Chin-scratches
7. Your dream last night? Grey
8. Your favourite drink? H2O
9. Your dream/goal? Infallibility
10. The room you're in? Study
11. Your ex? Sara
12. Your fear? Self
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Better
14. Where were you last night? Bed
15. What you're not? Alone
16. Muffins? Calories
17. One of your wish list items? Books
18. Where you grew up? Australia
19. The last thing you did?
20. What are you wearing? Cloths
21. Your TV? Nice
22. Your pets? Cute
23. Your computer? Nice
24. Your life? Progressing
25. Your mood? Uplifting
26. Missing someone? Sometimes
27. Your car? Invisible
28. Something you're not wearing? Shoes
29. Favourite Store? GamesWorkshop
30. Your summer? Educational
31. like someone? Always
32. Your favourite colour? Red
33. When is the last time you laughed? 21:20
34. Last time you cried? Recent

88 countrys baby.

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 01:59:37 GMT

My bid for world domination
LiveJournal Username
Why you did it
Your lair
Your hideous secret weapon
Your favourite colour

Beautiful and exotic but deadly eastern lieutenant	dijor
Henchperson who constantly plays with knifes	woosang
Your perverted scientific genius	cadence_fish
You cordon bleu chef	theold_greywolf
Lieutenant with serious moral qualms	badmandi
Number of countries subverted	88


This Fun Quiz created by Andrew at BlogQuiz.Net

Cancer Horoscope at DailyHoroscopes.Biz

work is cool workers suck

Mon, 13 Aug 2007 08:15:08 GMT

Ok I work for a Telco in Australia.

Now with this kind of work you expect that customer will be annoying and angry and all that jazz, I can deal with this more over I really do not think much of it, I feel for the customer while they are on the line when the conversation is over I am back to not giving a dam in til the next customer drops in.

This is just a normal day for me what really shits me, is when another (call centre rep) who thinks he can walk over to my self and yell at the top of his lungs DO YOUR JOB PROPLEY! …. I had a customer on the line who arced up at this and then making my job all the much harder.

Now I was shocked at the actions of this person, what still shocks me is that no one even seamed to notice. For the reminder of the night my nerves were shot to hell thinking that I will be making mistakes all the dam time.

How the is this a constructive environment, I am tomorrow having more words with my Tl I never want that to happen again and the fact that it did has made going to work rather uneasy for me.

Teh Newness

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 09:20:51 GMT

Thanks to the awesome decadentdecayed, I have a new userpic and new little frogs dancing across my page... of course they should be chickens, because we all know only chickens can dance (dance little chickens dance the dance of lameness!!) but they are frogs who think they are chickens so it is all good. XD

Fri, 25 May 2007 04:43:51 GMT

My god I want it to be 11 days in the future because them the 3rd instalment of fallout will be here and I will be able to stay up late all more like all weekend playing it learning it’s secrets and plotting what to next.

The concept art is so sweet it looks like it will run on the same engine as Morowind and all it’s expansions, so it may be 1st person format but with the options as world of war craft and never winter knights where you can zoom out and look down on your character and I hope the gun fights are as realistic as in battle field 2.

I think it will be primary a first person shooter with an actually plot line and actually story of a world after the bomb went off. I do have it follows the story of some one ells and not a vault dweller, maybe a X military soldier or something but it had to in some way link to fall out 2 and 1 like the others but as how this will be achieved is far beyond my understanding, yet!

But yeah I am just sitting here wishing it was 11 days in the future so I would not have to wait any longer.

I want a game to play which is as complex as can get with many twists and turns with a story line and game play where you can still take a sledge hammer and do a groin shot to a child!
“May there never remove that from the game, because after a long day of talking to people on the phone you really do want to”

So yeah there is my though as of right now!

Wed, 23 May 2007 11:56:45 GMT

You are The Emperor

Stability, power, protection, realization; a great person.

The Emperor is the great authority figure of the Tarot, so it represents
fathers, father-figures and employers. There is a lot of aggression and violence
too.

The Emperor naturally follows the Empress. Like an infant, he is filled with enthuiasm, energy, aggression. He is direct, guileless and all too often irresistible. Unfortunately, like a baby he can also be a tyrant. Impatient, demanding, controlling. In the best of circumstances, he signifies the leader that everyone wants to follow, sitting on a throne that indicates the solid foundation of an Empire he created, loves and rules with intelligence and enthusiasm. But that throne can also be a trap, a responsibility that has the Emperor feeling restless, bored and discontent.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 05:22:42 GMT

What to do, I understand that Melisa and my self right now can not be in a “relationship”, but the though of others replacing me hurts and I am trying to not let it show so Melisa can do what she needs to do and so she dose not have to worried about me, but it is hard and sneaky to control such emotions.

I keep finding my self calling her number and wanting to talk to her about random things so she cannot really talk to others, but I control my self because that is just wrong and I am not a controlling person I am a leave headed person.

I deal in facts not all this. I only chase down people who are dishonest and will not come clean even though they know it is hurting others, I become totally dogged and will never let them have a moment of peace well not for a long time.

With knowing that then why am I chasing down Melisa and benign totally dogged in what is actually going on but I am just so confused by my own actions.

Oh I do not know what to do I am just tempted to do what I all ways do and leave it and just walk away and not be a friend or anything just never talk to her but that is just as childish as moaning after a ex.

So I am in a bit of a bind do I walk away knowing that it could of worked it we had tried a bit harder, or do I let her have her space and do what she needs and then take her back? Honestly both options suck and I wish I could hide from having to make a choice.

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 01:19:35 GMT

- Age: 22

- Gender: Male

- Star Sign: Aries

- Longest relationship: Unofficially, 3 years 2 maths... officially, 1 yr 7 maths

- Shortest relationship: 1 weekend - it was a drunken weekend thing

- How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you? Most (maybe all?) of them.

- Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with? The last few times.

- Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? Yes, whenever I love some ones it is so much it hurts.

- Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Yes, but I never mean to.

- Are you happier single or in a relationship? I am happier in a relationship where I can be myself & have a bit of freedom but still have someone to come home to and snuggle up to when I am cold.

- Have you ever been cheated on? Yes and it hurts.

- Have you ever cheated on someone? Yes and it was good.

- Have you ever had your heart broken? Yes

- Have you ever broken someone's heart? I would have to say yes.

- Talk to any of your ex's? Not really... there are a few who I do not like any more mainly because they are not the person who I use to like.

- If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your ex's, who would it be? I am a happy ex right now, but saying that I am not so happy that I do not want her back.

- Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? Yes... I am loyal and determine and dogged to a T... sometimes to my own detriment.

- Have you dated people who were not good to you? Oh yeah

- Have you been in an abusive relationship? NO and I will never be in one.

- Have you dated someone older then you? Yes

- Dated someone younger then you? Only once.

- Do you regret anything that you have or haven't done with a boyfriend or girlfriend? I regret not being able to let go, even when I could see the relationship was dying or already dead.

- Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? With me you get 3 chances, you may never know how close you have come to benign out in my books because I will never tell you that you have strikes out, but yeah 3 chances.

- Believe in love at first sight? I think you cannot truly say I love you in till you have lived with “the person you love”.

- Ever dated two people at once? No I can barley date one person at one time.

- Ever been given an Engagement ring? I am a guy I do not get an engagement ring but I have given one.

- Do you have something to say to any of your ex's… nothing really comes to mind that they don’t all ready know.

- Ever stole someone’s boyfriend or girlfriend? Yes and it was the most complicated love triangle I have ever been in and will never do it again!

- Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? Yeah I have.

- Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? Worse, it is like a thousand little needles stabbing at your heart, you can not breath, you can not think you just curl up and shake at the thought of “how could some one be so mean’

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 15:55:53 GMT

So here i am, it is 1:39 am and once again in the long line of Sam stuff ups. one again Melisa is angry at me for doing what i told her i was going to be doing, tonight i was suppose to just play wow with my father at a web cafe. Now my father is sitting right next to me and he and my self are not really doing anything together, this is because my friends Allan and Rodney wanted to come along and play shot then up games so for most of the night i have been, now is my father angry? no. That i am not spending time that i said i would with him, now why would Melisa who has said many times that is free and single have a major issue with me having fun with my friends and not really telling her what i am doing with my evening.

I ask this question i really want an answer from any one who reads my posts, i am at a loss as to what to do?

i saw her sitting over there all alone and i decided that i would go over there and spend some time with her all i get is attitude, over how she is angry with me about how i did not spend any time with her. Dose this sound like a caring relationship to you? this dose not to me.

I am trying to be more and more what she wants, every day i feel that a bit more of my self slips away I want to be with her but not at the cost of my self, i am still the guy she fell in love with and it has never changed it is her that has changed. I am not into playing games and i will not play this game.

Now i am not doing this to have an attack at Melisa event though this will be seen as such, i am just trying to make sense of it all.

I have a plane

Sat, 24 Mar 2007 06:33:22 GMT

And I am back baby, I am now a working man, yeah I have a call center job at Virgin mobile and I start this Monday yeah from what I have seen of the company it is a good place to work but only time will tell
Soon to be doing night school well night tafe or long distance courses, yeah-childcare certificate III, I think which will lead on to teaching and maybe a career in that field.
I do so love to teach people I just have to get over my natural anger at disrespect, I mean I can teach others I have taught many people how to paint figures and these kids that play war hammer range from 12 to well my age and older, so dealing with kids from year 7 level should not be a problem.

So yeah I have at least a goal in my future and with the help of my soon to be wife, Melisa and all her natural skill with the English language, so I get her help all the time with my spelling and grammar so I can improve with it so it is not so much of a problem.

I am happy to say that Melisa and my self are getting closer to having our own place a place of our own where I do not have to worry about pets pissing on my things and if I leave this here will it be moved and do I have to ask to do this, NO my own place where I can walk around half naked and just chill by my self if need be.

Sun, 03 Dec 2006 06:58:08 GMT

The hypnotic sounds of typing, like people doing nothing wile looking like doing something. Just mak

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 23:56:10 GMT

Class Clown
You are 42% Rational, 100% Extroverted, 71% Brutal, and 100% Arrogant.

You are the Class Clown. This means you walk down the center of the classroom with books on your head, while the teacher stares on in...

Shit, I really need to stop looking at these pictures while I'm typing.

Anyway, I MEANT to say that you are the Class Clown, and this means that you are extroverted, mean, and arrogant. You are not very rational, so you gravitate towards things that produce feelings or emotions over thoughts (like fart jokes or spitballs, for instance). You are also an extrovert and rather full of yourself, so of course you want constant attention for yourself and think you are somehow better than others. (Upon hearing the expression "you are full of yourself", you probably also slyly feel the need to ask women if they would like to be "full of yourself" too. I am assuming you have a penis. I often make that assumption, being fond of the penis.) You can also be a bit mean-spirited, and like a class clown you wouldn't hesitate to make a joke at someone else's expense, no matter how terrible it would make them feel. So your personality defects are that you have to be the center of attention, that you don't care about others, and that you are rather irrational and motivated by intuitions. Now stop walking around with those books on your head and sit down this instant! Or else I'll be forced to stand here, hands on my hips, doing nothing once again!

To put it less negatively:

1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational.

2. You are more EXTROVERTED than introverted.

3. You are more BRUTAL than gentle.

4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.

Compatibility:

Your exact opposite is the Robot.

Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Schoolyard Bully, the Smartass, and the Brute.

If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits.

The other personality types:

The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 23% on Rationality

You scored higher than 95% on Extroversion

You scored higher than 82% on Brutality

You scored higher than 98% on Arrogance

Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

laid back... sippin' on gin and juice...

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 05:46:33 GMT

Laid Back
59 snob points (out of 100)

You can appreciate a skillful turn of phrase, and you certainly wouldn't mind if people took a bit more care with their language, but you (mostly) keep your complaints to yourself.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 42% on snobbery

Link: The Grammar Snob Test written by dbang on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Not to much

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 23:59:14 GMT

I would like to say something about all that horrible crap that has got most of the country talking about racism. But in my humble mind I do not care I am as white as you can go, my father is Irish and Scottish my mother is French and English and all through my school life and to date I am, picked on by who ever thinks they can. Now at times I think it may be because I am white, but at the end of the day I do not give a shit about anyone, except for the people who give a shit about me. I give where it is due.

Well that is enough of that, This year I have had the good the bad and the really unpleasant. Truth be told I would rather not change any of this year at all. I have finally, got my independence, I have my own place and I live with my partner, who at times can really bog things down with thinking way to much on the little things, that are not even worth the thought. What can you do, I have asked my self but in-till recently I have just decided that I should just let her be it is how she works and well why should I change her.

Oh this christmas should be good I will be taking my partner with me to my family's get together and since family is a big deal for me, I hope she can appreciate what this means. I usually wait for at least about 7 month before I even think about it or even asking if I or they would like to be involved in christmas. So to do it with in 4 months, is a bit of a jump in my usual protocol involving my family. But I have been thinking about it and I have no qualms about it so I asked her well more like seed you are coming with me and she agreed.

Chat to you in the new year.